help me name my new kitten!!

i havent picked him up yet...but i saw him today. he is the most precious thing ever! hes so calm and relaxed and cuddly.

i need a name though.

here is a list of names ive come up with but i dont know if im lovin any of them yet. some are weird and remind me of stores hahah and designers

london
dolce
paris
armani
hollister
harley
cash

here is a pic of him.

For what it's worth

So its Saturday night and once again I'm alone. drinking a beer. listening to itunes. thinking. life is weird. you think you know someone..but you don't. you think you're sure of what you truly want out of life and then everything changes in an instant. i cant read chris' mind and i sure as hell don't want to try. he doesn't know if he wants to be with me or not. he says he needs time and space and I'm giving it to him but its not good enough i guess and I'm not sure what else to do. so that's it. I've given up trying to make him happy and give him what HE wants because I'm not getting what I want in the end. i guess at the end of the day the only person i really need to make happy is myself. and lately i havent been that happy. it sucks. but whatever. I'm gonna change that.

vacation is less than 2 weeks away and i cannot wait for it to get here. I'm gonna have fun. do what i want to do...and that's that.

i wanted so badly to have Chris with me and have fun with me. but its no possible. so does that mean that i don't get to have fun too? i think not. i do all the shit he wants to do. that he thinks is fun. like washing his work trucks and going to the yard where they keep the work trucks. yea....that really doesn't excite me in any way shape or form. its embarrassing when i get invited to things like parties for work, or family and friends...and he doesn't want to go with me. when everyone else brings their significant other...I'm here all alone or with Erin. i don't mind have Erin with me but i guess people think we're lesbo's ha ha. whatever. it'd be nice to have him with me, that's what i was getting at.

i think what i have to do now is just be single. forget all this bullshit. don't bother him. have fun and do what makes me happy.

I'm gonna get my passport...and maybe get some people together and go away. that'd be amazing. i want to see the world. i would love to go to Italy. or the Caribbean. anywhere really. ha ha. meet some hot men and drink and dance.

oh well. i cant dwell on it. i love this boy with all my heart but hes not helping me out here. so i have to do what is best for me. cut all ties with him. even though we've been through alot together. its gonna be hard at first but i know i can do it. =)

I like lists

So lately me and chris havent been doing as well as we used to. We def need something to spice up our relationship. I wanted to make a list of things i think would be good and fun for us to do. If you have any ideas please feel free to leave them in a comment.

1. go to NYC and walk around central park

2. dave and busters

3. mt airy casino

4. spend the weekend at a hotel...in a suite.

5. surprise each other with dinner. -- i did this one last night.

6. go to the shore

7. take a walk

8. ride our bikes

9. bronx zoo

10. nice dinner in nyc or jersey

11. comedy club in nyc

12. movie night

13. walk around morristown

14. mini golf

thats all i have for now. please...any ideas...let me know!!

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7.30.08

What a freakin day. It's so hot. I hope it rains. I cant stand the heat at all. I think thats why Ive been so crabby for so long. It's very annoying. I hate being mean.

Work was very hectic today. It's been quite obnoxious the last few weeks. Not sure why. I guess were just getting used to it being nuts. I messed up the lunch order. Its so frustrating. ugh I cant wait to go on vacation. Now more than ever. Everyone is pissing me off. EVERYTHING IS PISSING ME OFF. How about that?!

K forget work. Lets talk about the lovelife. Me and the hubby had a date tonight. We went to fridays. We didnt talk much about us. But it was fun. I ordered a Long Island Iced Tea. mmmm so much alki. i love it. For dinner we both had the jack daniels flat iron. so good. and of course i had to get dessert. The chocolate angel swirl cake. so delicious.

I love my chris. Hes my favorite person. He gets me. My sense of humor. He just understands. lately is been difficult to get along. but i guess every couple has that. it just seems like it'll never end sometimes. I wish i could see into the future and see what would happen with us. i wish i could know that it will get better and there wont be anymore tension.

i miss him. i really really do. i miss seeing his face. i miss his kisses. i miss his hugs. i miss his smile. laugh. his butt. oh man. i just miss him.

ugh. i dont know anymore.

♥

7.29.08

so today i texted chris and broke up with him. yea. right. only lasted 2 minutes. haha. i cant fight with him. let alone break up with him. thats nuts. i love him to death. so its 10:17 right now. i should be getting ready for bed. washing my face. doing my bleacing trays. reading and sleeping.

i have work tomorrow at 730. oh fun. that means i have to be up at 6. ughh. hopefully me and chris can go on our date tomorrow when i get out @ 5.

anyway. vacation is 24 days away. i cant wait to go. i need to get away from this place for a while.

the whole living on my own thing is stressin me out. i can hardly sleep.

k. im gonna go mess around with the blog.

<3